Balance. Purpose. Enlightenment.
When I became a Lemurian student, I was a successful lawyer in a fast-paced, high-energy, good-paying position. But the only thing that seemed to matter to my firm was the results I produced, and I had strayed from my moral bearings, not to mention Christ’s Teachings and natural law. To address this predicament would take courage, a virtue I felt I lacked. How to build integrity became my focus.
I feared the changes I wanted to make in myself could jeopardize my job, but I knew pursuing higher values was essential to my personal growth.
So I looked for how to build integrity in my work while trying to meet the goals of my clients and firm, realizing I was not trying to change others, only myself. It was a lonely road at times, but grudgingly, my bosses accepted more of the new me. And holding to my values in even small ways brought a special feeling of accomplishment.
I made many mistakes. When I tried too hard, was too impulsive or “letter of the law,” I found myself in hot water with my superiors. I got frustrated and angry about what I felt was expected of me. Sometimes my courage failed because I could easily imagine the worst possible outcome. When I stumbled, it was disappointing, but at least I was trying. I drew comfort and many practical techniques from my Philosophy, tried to remember that what really mattered was what I, not others, did, and didn’t let myself feel overly discouraged.
Eventually I realized I was more successful with gradual and quiet efforts to change, not pushing. Instead of refusing to do something because it was wrong, it went more smoothly when I just said I was uncomfortable with the idea. Another helpful approach was to speak to my boss ahead of time about an upcoming problem and propose a mutually acceptable solution. But most often, my efforts were known only to me as I followed the thread of integrity through my workplace challenges.
Then came an offer to join another firm. I gratefully accepted, resolving to make truth one of the hallmarks of my new venture. As time passed, though, again I found myself wrestling with integrity. This concerned me because, as a Lemurian student, I had a growing understanding of what to expect from the impersonal operation of God’s laws. When it was clear I could not resolve this conflict within the expectations of my job, it was time for some hard thinking.
I asked myself what I enjoy most about law. It’s helping others. The people part is so much more satisfying than lawsuits over money. Knowing this, with my wife’s support, I went into public interest law. My new job gives greater satisfaction and makes a difference in others’ lives. And clients’ heartfelt appreciation is a great bonus.
Now I know I can be a successful lawyer and stay true to moral values. I’m happier and work with a deeper purpose. And arriving home in a better mood is an unexpected benefit my wife really appreciates. It’s not always easy to walk the narrower path in a world with the emphasis on material accomplishments, but now I know it can be done.
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4 thoughts on “How to Build Integrity”
How nice it is to read a story about successfully applying the Philosophy in an area that can be so difficult to do so. If it can be accomplished in the practice of law, seems it would be useful just about anywhere.
What a difficult, and well met challenge! Not only remaining focused on your goal in such an opposing environment, but resisting the material gain to be had by giving in!
But it is sad to hear that there was so little room for integrity in the practice of law. One would think that its practice should require only the highest level of integrity!
If a person can use integrity in a fast paced high profile law firm, it gives hope for using it anywhere. It seemed to take thought and planning how best to abide by his beliefs while not being confrontational or overtly antagonizing his bosses. Interesting and helpful.
Thanks for this very helpful account. I have challenges at work as well and hearing how someone else applied Lemurian principles reminds me that, with patience and application, I too can replace fear with love and faith.