Today I had to face two of my weaknesses, lack of courage ( fear of failure) and precision. I keep the family accounts and my own personal ones. I work hard on my Personal Lemurian Record. Today we had an appointment with our tax preparer. It fell to me to gather all our required records. During the last tax year, we sold our old home and bought a newer, more energy efficient one. The new one is smaller, and I had to give up my old, many-drawered, familiar desk. This makes my keeping records even more challenging. Some papers are in boxes in storage. Without proper documentation on the costs of selling, we faced a significant tax bill for the sale. I was awake in the middle of the night, fretting over whether I had collected everything we needed. After a while John awoke too, asking what was bothering me. He felt that I did what I could, and it would eventually be ok. I remembered about fear building on itself. I realized I had forgotten to say the Protective Prayer when my fears began! I knew I needed work on Precision and Efficiency, but had not used Courage, and allowed fear of making expensive mistakes to overcome me. With thanks, I corrected that oversight, and soon both of us were able to return to sleep, and be ready for our appointment. I do accept my need to work more with precision and efficiency. I also can see I am doing better than years ago. Remembering the Protective Prayer was such a help, my fears melted and I was able to face whatever the day brought. Working on my Precision, Efficiency, and with Courage, together, was satisfying.
Today I had to face two of my weaknesses, lack of courage ( fear of failure) and precision. I keep the family accounts and my own personal ones. I work hard on my Personal Lemurian Record. Today we had an appointment with our tax preparer. It fell to me to gather all our required records. During the last tax year, we sold our old home and bought a newer, more energy efficient one. The new one is smaller, and I had to give up my old, many-drawered, familiar desk. This makes my keeping records even more challenging. Some papers are in boxes in storage. Without proper documentation on the costs of selling, we faced a significant tax bill for the sale. I was awake in the middle of the night, fretting over whether I had collected everything we needed. After a while John awoke too, asking what was bothering me. He felt that I did what I could, and it would eventually be ok. I remembered about fear building on itself. I realized I had forgotten to say the Protective Prayer when my fears began! I knew I needed work on Precision and Efficiency, but had not used Courage, and allowed fear of making expensive mistakes to overcome me. With thanks, I corrected that oversight, and soon both of us were able to return to sleep, and be ready for our appointment. I do accept my need to work more with precision and efficiency. I also can see I am doing better than years ago. Remembering the Protective Prayer was such a help, my fears melted and I was able to face whatever the day brought. Working on my Precision, Efficiency, and with Courage, together, was satisfying.
Thank you so much. This is exactly what I have been working on. And I have seen results.